We should be leaving in a few minutes. Don’t have time to write a whole lot, but I’m getting a little anxious. This weekend should be a nice break from all the tests and projects though. Wish me luck. Some details when I get back.

So this post was originally going to be about how I felt pretty good about my Quant Management test yesterday when I left, but that kind of got overshadowed when I checked the scores for my two tests last week. One low B, one low C. Definitely not my best work, and not the way I was hoping to start off this semester’s tests. What makes it a little more annoying is that this semester I’ve probably been making the biggest effort of my college career to actually be ready for class and tests. I’ve actually been reading (most) everything required for class and I’ve studied more this semester than most all of last semester. Apparently it’s not enough. (Suck)

Now I know some people reading this would be thinking, “so he got a B and a C on two tests; so what? That’s average and above average, what’s wrong with that?” Well, nothing. Except that I know I can do better. I’ve been doing better all my life and I didn’t suddenly become average. I’m not trying to sound egotistical or arrogant, but the fact is I know that I’m capable of A’s, and so when I don’t get them I feel like I’ve let myself down. Now, of course, life will go on. I won’t beat myself up over it, but it’s still annoying. And you can bet that I’ll study harder next time. The only thing that sucks about that is that I already feel like I don’t have time to do the things I want to do outside of class…lets take away a little more time. Boo. Hiss.

I’ve got one more test before Fall Break, so I guess that’s my chance to redeem myself. Speaking of break, I’m really looking forward to it. Four whole days with nothing school related, and I’m even leaving the state. I’m going to meet Amber’s parents for the first time, so I’m a little nervous but pretty excited at the same time. I hope I can live up to expectations.

Well, I’ve wasted enough time here. Back to work.

I’ve spent the last two hours at the Putnam desk, but unlike most late night shifts, this one has been a lot of fun. Amber, Hannah, and Noel have been here with me playing card games like Egyptian Rat Slap, BS, and now Spoons. I love my friends!

Currently Playing: Frou Frou

Edit: Yeah, we also played War. Gotta love it. Also gotta love Hannah knocking a spoon my way about every other time, even if it didn’t do me any good. I was first out.

Tests that is. All of my classes decided it was time. So far I’ve taken Systems Design, and Networking. Next week is Quantitative Management and Database. Not looking forward to either of them. But then again, when does anyone actually want to take a test anyway?

This weekend my goal is to not do what I did last weekend. Although I had a blast, I did absolutely nothing school related and I have a feeling my test scores might reflect that. So for the next three days my goal is to multitask. I plan to have a blast, and study/program/read. Not quite sure how that’s going to work out yet, but I’ll do it somehow.

Now it is my intention to sit down and play video games for several hours.

Currently Playing: Yellowcard – Rough Draft

Finding my own words, my own little stage
My own epic drama, my own scripted page
I’ll send you the rough draft, I’ll seal it with tears
Maybe you’ll read it and I’ll reappear
From the start it was shaky and the characters rash,
A nice setting for heart ache where emotions come last
All I have deep inside, to overcome this desire
Of friendly intentions and fair-weather smiles

In an effort to put off the inevitable studying for my test tomorrow, I went in search of the J.D. Power and Associates 2004 Restaurant Satisfaction Study. I just heard a little bit about it on the radio. Olive Garden seems to be quite the popular place. It’s too bad we don’t have one here in Manhattan. Italian is so good!

Currently Playing: Teen Girl Squad Issue #4

Cheerleader: I’m totally bummed that school is happening again this year.
Other Three: SO GOOD!!!
Cheerleader: Ya’ll are so wack.
The Ugly One: Wiggidy-wack?
Cheerleader: Nope. Just regular type.

I wish I could freeze time. Capture a single moment to do with it what I please. What would be depends on the moment. This weekend had the two extremes. Moments I would love to hold onto forever. And one moment I would love to capture and throw away forever. I’ll get back to this a little later.

I didn’t end up going out Thursday night, as some of you pointed out. Amber didn’t feel well and I didn’t really feel like going without her. So we just hung out and had a good night without the bars. It’s the first Thursday I haven’t been out since school started, so I didn’t feel too bad about it.

Friday I was semi-productive. I did about an hours worth of programming (things are actually working!) and I also did some stuff for my new position that isn’t really new. Hopefully I’ll have things in the mailroom the way I want them to be by the end of this week. I also had my worthless advising appointment where I told him what I am taking next semester and confirmed that he’s a moron. Still, I had to get my flag lowered and do a “graduation requirement check” or something stupid.

Friday night Amber and I watched Love Actually and despite Jimmy’s complaints about it, I think he liked the movie. The movie case touts it as “The Ultimate Romantic Comedy” and I would have to agree. I mean we tried to count how many love stories there were all within one movie and the number was at least ten. And I’ll have to say that about a month ago I probably would have hated it. I mean not really hated it, because it’s a good movie, but hated it because it would remind me of all the things I was missing. Well, I’ve been working on that. And so instead of hating it, I rather enjoyed it 🙂

Saturday was an awesome day. Lots of times there were those moments that I wanted to capture and save forever. Amber and I drove to KC for the Renaissance Festival since neither of us had ever been. The drive there and back gave us plenty of time to talk, and the Festival was really cool. I didn’t realize it was so big. We didn’t end up buying much of anything (much to my sister’s disappointment), but we are poor college students after all. On the way back we stopped off in Topeka and ate at Olive Garden (we’re suckers for Italian).

We also stopped in at Barnes and Noble to pick up a book and met a couple who was also browsing the children’s section. As we stood there and talked to them for a little bit, the guy asked if we were married. Wow, didn’t expect that. Interesting. It was probably partly due to the fact that the just got married, but I’ll have to say that is the first time that’s ever happened to me. That wasn’t the only interesting thing, though, because apparently they already own their own business. The guy wanted to give me some more information and he’s actually going to be in Manhattan tomorrow night to talk about it, but I don’t think I’ll be able to make it. Random.

Once we got back we decided to head out to Lake Pottawatomie (a.k.a. State Fishing Lake No. 2 as I found out when I tried to figure out how to spell it). The moon is almost full at this point so it kind of obscured view of the stars, but it was still really cool. Another one of those moments I’d like to save and hang onto for a very long time.

And then I did something incredibly stupid. This would be the moment that I would love to remove from existence. I don’t feel the need to share exactly what happened for the world to read. It wasn’t a huge thing, but it’s the kind of thing that never should have happened. I can’t explain it away, and it would be pointless to try. I’d like to say I can just brush it off and forget about it, but it won’t be easily forgotten. Still, I think damage done was minimal, and I am incredibly thankful for that. Please don’t ask me what happened, because I will not tell you. I know I usually want people to ask me about stuff, but this is one thing I don’t want to talk about. Please respect that.

If I could throw that moment away, the weekend has been awesome. The unfortunate part is that now reality is coming back and I’ve gotta start doing school work again. I’m pretty sure I have a meeting at 10 (which I still need to verify). Ok, I’ve really gotta move on to something more productive. I’m out.

Edit: After looking at this again, the title doesn’t really seem to fit. It was supposed to be more a question of how could all of this good stuff finally be happening to me. So yeah.