A name with multiple meanings. At the moment it signifies the Trojan Horse that has invaded Jason’s computer. I’m running two different virus scans which so far haven’t been able to do squat…I have high hopes for one of them though, it has never failed me in the past. This could get fun really quick if it doesn’t work though, we’ll just have to see. I wish this didn’t have to take forever. I had to turn my music up really loud (oh no!) to hear it from across the hall. Good thing there is no one else here to care. *grin*

This morning was biscuits and gravy for breakfast, and although it wasn’t anywhere near the best they’ve ever made, I thoroughly enjoyed stumbling, still half asleep, over to Van Zile, eating in a daze, and crawling back into bed with that feeling of warmth and satisfaction in my stomach. I actually slept in for the first time in a while too. It was great.

So I’m experimenting with iTunes for the first time. I may have to start checking out their free downloads, too. I’m kind of enjoying the Party Shuffle feature and I’m starting to rate my music. Here’s the system I’ve decided on:

***** I absolutely love it and will never tire of it. Play it daily (almost).
**** Still a great song, but not the absolute best. Play no less than weekly.
*** One of those other songs on the CD that’s still worth listening to. Average; play once every month or so.
** The kind of other song that I’m likely to skip if I think there’s something better. Play occasionally when in the right mood.
* That song I won’t delete just because it completes the album. Rarely (if ever) listen all the way through.

I just have a few songs to go (sarcasm). My goal is to have everything rated, meaning the absolute minimum is one star. If it deserves less than one star, it has to go.

AHA! As I finished explaining my rating system, the second virus scan finally found the trojan and claims to have disinfected it. We’ll see how true that really is when it finishes.

Oh, you’re wondering about the other meanings of Trojan? For the record, I am a Trojan Man. Yeah, that’s right, I went to Andover High School, home of the Trojans. (What were you thinking?) It was humorous being a Trojan because it just begged people to make jokes based on the popular brand name (I can see the headlines: Trojan Defense Holds Strong), especially when our list of opponents included the Topeka Seaman Vikings and Bonner Springs (there’s two n’s there people). I kid you not. I’m still trying to figure out why the school had to be called Topeka Seaman High School when their mascot was a Viking. Why not just be the Topeka High School Vikings? I mean even if it was one of several schools in the city they could have added a freakin’ direction. (Can you say Andover Central?) But I guess that would have been too easy. Apparently someone wanted their children to be tormented for four years.

Last Minute Addition: I was spell checking this before posting and the Blogger dictionary didn’t recognize freakin’. So it suggested foreskin. Brilliant.

Currently Playing: Trik Turner – Not Like You

Hey old friend its been a long time
I’ve been better, but thank you
Tomorrows yesterdays fades fast
Faster, then gives way, I’ve been better, but thank you

My long shift is almost over and I’ve made it without falling asleep. What’s kept me busy for the last 15 minutes or so? The Hole. This is great cause it’s like something I would have wanted to do when I was a kid, but never had the patience (or resources) to get it done. And while I’m thinking about my childhood, do you remember how much fun places like Discovery Zone were (it was Phys Kids before that)…well now you can own it. Ok, enough reminiscing. My lunch is here.

Currently Playing: Family Guy – The Son Also Draws

3am to 1pm. So I have plenty of time to sit here and I was trying to think of something to occupy my time. I’m gonna try something new. A little dissection of music. We’ll see how this turns out. I make no promises. Keep in mind I’m starting this at nearly 5:30 in the morning after about 3 1/2 hours of sleep. I am surprisingly awake for the time though…

Ok, here’s how this is gonna work. I’ve included the lyrics of a song without the repeating chorus so it takes up less space. My favorite parts I’ve enclosed with ^superscript numbers. Below the lyrics, I’ll tell a little about what it means to me, how it makes me feel, what I think was intended, or pretty much whatever the hell I want 🙂

Currently Playing: Yellowcard – Back Home

¹Don’t know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone^1
2And sometimes I need someone to say, “You’ll be all right. What’s on your mind?”²
But the water’s shallow here and I am full of fear, and empty handed after two long years

Another starry night in Californ-i-a
I’m sure back home they’d love to see it
But they don’t know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it

¹This is only partially true for me. Going home is a great chance to spend time with my family, and I wouldn’t trade that for the world. Still, if my family has other things going on that don’t necessarily include me there is hardly anyone else at home that I can go hang out with. That part kinda sucks.

²I think everyone feels this way at least some of the time. I’ve got plenty of friends, but sometimes I feel like they don’t really notice when something is wrong. Then I have to wonder if they really care. And though I’m not exactly missing being in a relationship, this is one nice thing that gets taken care of automatically (or should) and I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss that aspect. Anyone who knows me very well understands that if they actually say something like this to me they are likely to get a lengthy answer. I think that’s what I needed mid-semester.

³This goes right along with ² in that sometimes I don’t feel like anyone is. And again, I know everyone has those moments where they feel that way, and it’s probably not true that no one is there. Sometimes it would be nice if people would show it a little more often, though.

⁴It seems like everyone is afraid of falling out of line. So many people live their lives the way other people want them to, and they walk around all the time afraid to step on other peoples’ toes. It’s just not cool. I’m not saying you should go out of your way to piss people off (or not care at all about anything others think), but it will happen. Not everyone will like you. It’s something you have to deal with and move on. Sometimes it really does seem like people mess with others’ lives just because they have nothing better to do. How messed up is that? Unfortunately, I’ve found that when most of what I see in the world is ugliness, I stop taking notice. I do become blind to it. This place, this society will make you blind. Think about how shocking it would have been 20 years ago to see some of the things that are on TV and in the media today. When’s the last time you saw something uplifting as a major story on the news? It’s all about war and crime and poverty and hunger and all of the other twisted things that people do…and after a while it just doesn’t have the same affect. Our senses have been dulled by it all and it kinda makes me sick to think about it. Put it all behind me and I’ll be just fine. Well…we shall see.

⁵So I don’t really feel like I’m in California and everything is all bright and sunny. Times aren’t really good or bad right now, but somewhere in the middle. However, I do think that when times are good that a little rain can be a good thing. A dose of reality if you will. And I’m not talking about the “reality” they show on TV. That stuff seems so manufactured now, I can’t believe they still call it Reality TV. I guess this line has a double meaning for me too…I just like the rain sometimes. Sitting and watching it falling outside (or around me) can be really peaceful. Sometimes it can wash away a bad mood like it was nothing. Everything seems so clean and fresh when it’s over and the sun comes out again. It makes you appreciate the good times (or nice weather) just that much more.

So I’m realizing that I probably could have done the entire song line by line, but I think this will do. Hope you enjoyed it. Let me know if I should do this more often by leaving comments.

Edit: I’m the kind of person who can like a song for several reasons. One is for lyrical content. Lyrics are usually just poetry, and while I don’t go looking for new poetry to read, I love it put to music. Another thing is for sound. Sometimes it doesn’t matter what the words are, it just sounds appealing. When the two go together, I’m gonna love it. Yellowcard has managed to do both in almost all of their songs, and this is no exception. I absolutely love the electric violin. At the very least, I highly recommend their latest album Ocean Avenue.

Well, I originally thought that this week would be easy because I was only working seven hours. What I neglected to consider was all the conference stuff I would have to deal with and the fact that I’m going to be gone for the second half of the next scheduling period so I would have to cram hours into the first part. So now I’m working my seven hour shift, but then tonight I’ll be at the desk again. From 3am to 1pm. It was pretty much all that was left in the first week when the last bit of scheduling came around to me. I must be crazy. I’m gonna try and go to sleep around 8pm tonight, but I really don’t think it’s going to work very well. I may be sleeping the rest of tomorrow afternoon. So if you’re around and have nothing to do, stop by the Moore Hall desk and help keep me awake!

In other news (Trenary, look what you did), I’ve been organizing my music. I’m happy to report that I have approximately 20% in good shape. Holy crap I have a lot of music. On a hunch I put www.music.com into my browser the other day. It’s nothing yet, but I have high hopes so I signed up to be notified when the site gets launched. All the other online music directories I’ve found/used kinda suck.

“…and they don’t make emoticons for times like these…” SO funny…and frighteningly accurate for some people. And you can’t deny the latest Strong Bad Email. I was gonna quote it, but I can’t get it to load. Hopefully you’ll have more luck.

I’ve kind of gotten back into an old habit the last few days…staying up way too late doing absolutely nothing worthwhile and not getting enough sleep. I’ve had other things on my mind lately, so I’ll just blame it on that. It has to stop (the staying up late).

Lydick should be back with my lunch soon. I’ll wrap things here. Still trying to get a hint out of “Girl” …Oh yeah, and this is the first post from my laptop 🙂

Currently Playing: 3 Doors Down – Away From the Sun

I’m over this
I’m tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling’s gone
There’s nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I’ve known

Except me…

Two loads in the wash means I have times to post. Today I helped check in a bunch of girls for basketball camp. It took forever. But it’s done and I don’t have to worry about it until later this week. After the check in was softball.

We were worried about having enough people, but we ended up with exactly ten. Unfortunately, we didn’t play our best today, and its hard to come back in a game when you’re down almost ten runs. We did make it interesting by pulling to within two, but lost 14-17. Our next game isn’t for two weeks.

Surprisingly, I got an email about my laptop today, including a tracking number. It should arrive on Wednesday. It’s gonna be a long three days.

Currently Playing: Something Corporate – I Woke Up in a Car

I woke up in New York City
From my sleep behind the wheel
Caught a train to Poughkeepsie
And time stood still

I finally finished with all my desk hours this week. It was something like 34 hours, which isn’t horrible, but definitely a lot for this job. I did manage to make it out to the bars Thursday night with a bunch of friends and we had a great time. Then it was more work. Anyway, since I got off work at 3pm yesterday I’ve done a lot of nothing. Mostly I’ve found some funny stuff online.

First of all, while I don’t exactly feel this way anymore, I feel it necessary to post this Mac Bashing video. It’s been around a while, I’ve seen it before, but I still laughed my ass off.

Next, for all you Harry fans: Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban in Fifteen Minutes. I was seriously sitting in my room alone, laughing out loud as I read this. OH MY GOD I’M MY OWN FATHER!

The thing everyone secretly wanted to do, but only one had the balls to take action. Careful, it repeats.

So I was going to post a few more things, but I’ve decided I have better things to do. Later.

Currently Playing: Trapt – Headstrong

Conclusions manifest,
your first impression’s got to be your very best
I see you’re full of shit and that’s alright,
that’s how you play I guess you get through every night,
well now that’s over,
I see your fantasy, you wanna make it a reality paved in gold,
see inside, inside of our heads yea, well now that’s over,
I see your motives inside, decisions to hide

Don’t let the pretty of picture of Goodnow (pronounced “Good no”)Hall fool you. It’s not as exciting as you might think. I feel so worthless. Boys’ State has been here since the beginning of the week and I’d be surprised if they’ve been to the desk more than 4 times in 4 days. Seriously, this conference is like a machine. I think I could be sitting in one of the lounge chairs in the lobby and be just as effective (and more comfortable). Leigh has proven that theory in West. Sometimes you even get other people to do your job for you.

I can’t decide what to make of this. On the one hand, it is slightly humorous. And yet…the thought that mom started the five-second journey with six little ones and ended with only one makes laughter seem rather insensitive. It’s sad.

Apparently I like to start posts with questions. I don’t know what’s going on. It must be the intense level of boredom over here. Let the waiting begin…

Currently Playing: Incubus – Megalomaniac

I hear you on the radio
You permeate my screen
It’s unkind but if I met you in a scissor fight
I’d cut off both your wings on principle alone
On principle alone…

Ok, so my friend Lydick just sent me this. I think it’s hilarious. They did pretty much everything but reverse the actual letters themselves, and it actually works (just be sure to type in your search backwards). Anyway, I was impressed.

Currently Playing: Nothing (I’m at work)